January (Actually, Almost February) Already?!

I cannot keep up with myself.

Aharon hasn't been back to any doctors lately. His last appointment, the one where the doctor told him it was Fibromyalgia, was two days before Christmas. Things obviously got very busy at that point and then New Year's was here! I had to go out of town for work the second week of January. (To the Archery Trade Association 2010 show...wow.) After that, I came home to an apartment that hadn't had the slightest amount of cleaning done to it in almost a month, and about 7 loads of laundry needing to be done. I spent the next week getting things in order, getting doctors appointments for me to check my problems out, and trying to establish a routine.

Just when I felt like things were getting in order, I get hit with probably the worst week of female problems ever. I can barely move and I haven't ate much since Sunday. It's absolutely killer. (Sorry if any guys are reading this!)

I would really like to get a good routine going this year. I know that an entire month is pretty much over, but that doesn't mean that I should just give up on the entire year. I just feel like everything is against me. It's my final semester of school - at last- and I just found out I'm going to be a credit short. Luckily I can test out of English Comp at SC4 and still graduate without too much effort, but it still throws a brick in my plans. My best friend, Kadie, is getting married May 1st. My commencement is May 9th. So starting May 10th, I pretty much have a brand new life to adjust to. A life where I don't have to come home from work and do homework or spend weekends frantically writing papers.

So I feel like whatever routine I establish between now and May will end up changing after graduation. But then down the line we'll have a house and kids and routine will change again. I don't like change. Well, I do and I don't. It's too much to adjust to.

I already can barely fall asleep at night.